I can't believe I have to go another three months with a 13.60m pb... It's insatiable, my desire to have to "fix" things. Clearly I have had ample opportunity to break that this season, a couple big faults but at the end of the day I'm left with nothing more than 13.58m. What a joke. I know I should just be focused on getting healthy and having a big summer but I can't help over-train--I know I'm soon going to drive myself into the ground but I can't help it. It consumes my thoughts and when I try to get better I get worst.
13.54m, 13.58m, 13.30m, 13.10m, 13.01m, 13.42m, 13.25m, the last being the most bitter of all. And now I'm getting heavy I have already put on 4lb's since CIS, do I let myself continue to grow and hope my relative strength improves as well or do I try to stay where I am.
   What if I hit 170lb's? It wasn't that long ago I was 155...