I awoke to find my hamstring sore, it is a race against the clock-- to heal before I must jump. To be truthful I feel really good besides this one little issue. It's juniors all over again and I'm hoping the consequence is the same. If I can just hang on without falling a part I know I am ready for a big jump. After icing today it feels a little better and at the track I got up to 75% speed comfortably. That's not exactly where I would like to be before the biggest meet of the season but considering the way things have been going recently I will take it.

TODAY'S WORKOUT
600m jog
3x strides@75%
Static stretching

On one chilly summer evening over the summer I tore my hamstring in the last 10m of a 100m in practice. Then long jumping two weeks before junior nationals I tore it again. It's funny to think where I might be right now if it wasn't for that first tear way back in May. On January of this year I pulled my hamstring in the same spot on my sixth triple jump at a competition in Moncton, now 87 hours before I compete at nationals I'm wondering if I'm even going to be able to jump after I felt it tighten again in practice today. The plan was to do 3x35m but before I could even get to it my hamstring went on the last warm-up run. I have been here once before and that story had a happy ending... This time, I don't know... I'll see how it is in the morning before I make any decisions... Unfortunately I am waking up at 4:30am to leave for Winnipeg. This season just keeps getting worst.

TODAY'S WORKOUT
Warm-up
hamstring tear
Weights--
Squats 3x3@243lb's (light)

I actually felt pretty good again today, two days in a row. I feel like by taking last week pretty easy I'm starting to feel more energized this week. I feel exactly how I should, my CNS has definitely recovered.
I was pretty focused today, normally I hate core days but I got through it without too much mental anguish. I'm excited for this weekend, good or bad.

TODAY'S WORKOUT

Light 800m jog
Warm-up
Dynamic mobility
Incline leg raises 3x8
Leg raises 3x8@20lb's
Oblique crunches 3x8@65lb's (Each side)
Abdominal pull-downs 3x8@170lb's, 2x8@180lb's, 1x5@190lb's, 1x5@200lb's
Seated twists 3x8@33lb's (Each side)
Twisting incline leg-raises 3x8
Pull-up's 3x5
Standing med-ball twists 1x10@6kg (each side)
Lunge-position med-ball twists 1x10@6kg (each side)
Sitting med-ball twists 1x10@6kg (each side)
Myofascial release

Well, I felt a little better mentally today than I was over the last couple of days. I think I might jump alright this weekend despite everything that has happened recently. It's time to put everything that has happened in the past and realize that it's all about keep moving forward. Just keep moving forward. It's not about what everyone else jumps it's about beating myself.
In practice today I pretty much just did runways with a couple of light jumps thrown on the end. My runway is what the problem was at the last meet so it makes sense to work on it. I am quite slow, I definitely need to spend some time this spring working on pushing out the back, I'm musing with the idea of perhaps doing some block work to work on acceleration mechanics. The last five meters of my runway was timed at 0.56s which seems pretty slow, I believe it was about 8.93m/s but it felt about the same speed that I have been jumping at all season. I think I realistic goal for this summer would be to jump consistently over 9m/s. I am naturally slow so I can jump closer to my max velocity than most others can.

TODAY'S WORKOUT

Warm-up
Runways x8
Five step bounds 3x5
Light jogging triple jump x3
Weights--
Hang-snatch 5x2@135lb's (felt very good, fast)
Explosive bench 5x2@95lb's

I don't feel very well, I just feel heavy and flat--I think it is all in my mind, it's almost like I have just given up prematurely. Seven days before nationals is not the best time to be falling apart but that's honestly what it feels like. I don't have any pain anywhere really, my right hamstring origin is a little sore but no more than it has been for a while--every issue I'm dealing with right now is in my mind. I feel as though I just need to start over again and start rebuilding as is needed every now and then.
   Maybe when I wake up tomorrow I will be feeling better, it's the last technical practice before CIS, I really want to get my runway down since that's what the biggest problem was at the last meet. 

Each day I have been feeling a little bit better, I had more energy today than I have recently. It was a pretty quick workout still and tomorrow is a rest day. I'm hoping that I will bounce back on Sunday feeling light as a feather and ready to make a few last minute tweaks to my runway before CIS next weekend. All week I have had a bad feeling for nationals but maybe they won't go so bad, I think it's important that I stay lose and relaxed--the exact opposite of last weekend.

TODAY'S WORKOUT
Warm-up
Dynamic mobility
Incline leg raises 3x8
Leg-raises 3x8@20lb's
Oblique crunches 3x8@65lb's
Abdominal pull-downs 3x8@170lb's, 2x8@180lb's, 1x5@190lb's, 1x5@200lb's
Standing med-ball twists 1x10@6kg
Lunge-position med-ball twists 1x10@6kg
Sitting med-ball twists 1x10@6kg
Twisting incline leg-raises 3x8
Seated twists 3x8@33lb's
Static stretching

I didn't feel as good today as I had hoped for. I don't know why but for the last few weeks I have felt flat, I'm guessing it's just the after effect of such a long season but this is really not the time to be breaking down. I feel like I was peaked for McGill but never actually got to jump and now I have surpassed my optimal performance state. Every morning when I wake up I am sore and lethargic and it only gets worst through the day, I want to look forward to CIS with optimism that a personal best is likely but it's a competition against myself and I'm not sure if I can beat myself.
   I feel as though I am playing mind games with myself and this is definitely not the mindset that I should be in but I am rattled and I'm not sure if I can get back the confidence that I had at one point during the year. Tomorrow is going to be a light core workout, I'm going to stay off of my feet as much as I can and Saturday is an off day. Hopefully I feel much better on Sunday, mentally, because I am wasting a lot of energy right now.

TODAY'S WORKOUT
Warm-up
Standing stair jumps x3
Running stair jumps x3
Triple stair jumps x5
Bounds 5x6
Weights--
Hang-cleans 6x2@185lb's
Jerks 3x3@135lb's